Wishes on a Seed

 rest your wishes on a dandelion seed

trust it to the sun rays

let it free to a vessel made of wind

 there you will learn trust

keep your purest faith

not hoping, but knowing

When I say everything will be okay

secretly, I don’t always believe it

but I want you to feel it, my tiny wish maker

with all your might

cast your wishes and a few of mine

upon that seed

and show me your dream of where it will land

whisper to me

with all your wisdom and faith

that you believe wishes come true

and because you are new and free and untamed

I trust you with my heart and my wishes

 and in recent NEWS……

I know we could have found our happiness in Oregon. With time we would have settled into a new routine and we would smile through the days. Daddy would have loved his job. He would have loved the excitement and constant activity. Our house would have kept us safe and warm and our belongings would have made it feel like a home.  Addi and Landon would find friends and in their activities they would find normalcy. We would have discovered our favorite place for breakfast and the best place to take our evening walks. In time, I know we would adjust.

But, the yearning, the aching to be home would have never let up. It would silently eat us alive, stealing our joy and our sense of peace until the day we would decide to return. We agreed that leaving Montana just isn’t the right thing to do. It’s not you Oregon, it’s us. Our home and the family and friends that make it home are too important to let go. Our roots run too deep and a job, even a perfect job, isn’t a good enough reason to give it all up.  Once we spent some real time feeling Eugene we realized, just in time– that our roots will not stretch that far. The reality of our decision was pliable and it simply no longer made sense, it just didn’t feel right. Without feeling it, without being there, we would have never known for sure and now we do. It took about 48 hours before he did a 180 back towards Montana! The decision to stay has lifted a weight and we feel relieved.

You may be wondering, what now? As scary as it may be to soon be without a house and soon without a job, it is way less scary than the thought of moving to Oregon. We may technically be homeless (!), but when surrounded by our family and friends, we will never be without home. Our hope is a new door will open wide and we will be able to return to Hometown Missoula where our families are.

Life is an adventure and we grasp on to it with all we have, trusting our gut and having faith that we are where we belong.

                                                                                 to be continued…..

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